We had our first deployment “fight” today, via text.
I was upset about something else and he took the brunt of my frustration.
I wish I could say that I quickly realized I was overreacting and apologized, but I didn’t.
I wish I could write some insightful story about working through conflict while separated, but I can’t.
It’s lonely here. I’m never actually alone, yet the person on earth who knows me best, loves me the most, and would do anything for me is halfway across the world.
I’ve written this post 100 times in my head, and deleted most of what I typed. I don’t want to discourage people and definitely don’t want people to feel sorry for me.
There is joy in all of this. There is laughter, there is growth. Sometimes you just have to dig a little deeper to find it. But really isn’t that true for all of us?
My husband has been deployed to the Middle East for 274 days. These are my real thoughts expressing my heart during his absence. I appreciate your prayers and kind words as we cope, adapt, and carry on without him until August 2014. To read from the beginning, click here.